Open Question: Not depressed, but wanting to be hurt?

For quite a while I have been having consistant thoughts of being hurt. I never think of killing myself or cutting myself, and I have no desire to die. I have almost fantasies of bing in car crashes and losing limbs or being paralyzed or blind ect.. I am out of highschool, and have a close relationship with my mom, and have told her about the fantasies. Is this depression, or what?